Yesterday was a tough day, it was my last day with Bubbles before I leave for Australia, I decided to finish the loan early then in my last week or so I could spend time with my friends and family. Going for a sunrise hack has always been on my bucket list, just imaging sitting … Continue reading Farewell My Friend
I have anti-social days. For example today I am feeling anti-social. There is absolutely nothing wrong with me, I just don't have the energy to talk and I'd much rather be in my own space but a lot of people don't quite get this. They normally tie it to my mental health and they then think … Continue reading Anti-Social Days
I've suffered with panic attacks for as long as I can remember but it's only in the past couple of years I've actually realised that those random moments of fear and dread are in fact panic attacks. The first panic attack that I can remember was from maybe 4 or 5 years ago. I was … Continue reading Panic Attacks Are A B**ch
Living in a house with my mum and brother can be difficult sometimes. It's even harder to move back home after living on your own for a while. When I was living by myself I loved it. I had so much space. I could decorate how I wanted to and everything could be exactly how … Continue reading My Little Bit Of Peace
I'm very close with my Auntie D. She's my mums sister but has sometimes felt like a sister to me. She lives just over a 5 hour drive away so I don't get to see her very often. We used to go on holiday every year, normally for New Years. There would be my mum, … Continue reading Anxiety Strikes Again!
My last major mental breakdown was May last year. For months afterwards I was on self-destruct mode. When it came to alcohol, drugs and nights out I couldn't say no. By November I was mid way through my one to one counselling sessions which were mainly focusing on my PTSD and anxiety. At this point … Continue reading Getting Signed Off Work Due To My Mental Health
It's a saying we tell our friends and family members usually during a difficult time. It's a saying I used to despise hearing. If anyone ever dared to say that to me I would be filled with rage and anger. After my dads death, I struggled to figure out why. Why him? He was a … Continue reading Everything Happens For A Reason
Today is a day I used to dread. Normally by now I would have woken up in tears and I would be lying in my depressive hole for the rest of the day. I would normally go on social media and see people posting their tributes to their dad and I would either get angry at the … Continue reading Happy Fathers Day!
It's a topic that I cannot seem to get my family members (mostly my mum) to understand. I have absolutely no plans to ever have children. In all honesty, I don't think I've ever been a fan of babies or children. I live in a community where young parents (some younger than me) is the norm and I … Continue reading The ‘Grand Children’ Talk…
So yesterday I got a new tattoo...which my family don't know about. I haven't told my mum yet because I can't be arsed with the agg and she won't approve of another tattoo but I'm hoping she'll approve of the design. So to mum and other family members, if one day you read this I'm … Continue reading Yet Another New Tattoo…