I never wanted to go on antidepressants. When I was about 18 years old I had a few friends and family members suggest that I try them but I refused. I knew I was struggling but the thought of taking a tablet everyday just to try to make me happy didn't sit right with me. I … Continue reading Admitting Defeat – Antidepressants
I've suffered with panic attacks for as long as I can remember but it's only in the past couple of years I've actually realised that those random moments of fear and dread are in fact panic attacks. The first panic attack that I can remember was from maybe 4 or 5 years ago. I was … Continue reading Panic Attacks Are A B**ch
I'm very close with my Auntie D. She's my mums sister but has sometimes felt like a sister to me. She lives just over a 5 hour drive away so I don't get to see her very often. We used to go on holiday every year, normally for New Years. There would be my mum, … Continue reading Anxiety Strikes Again!
I'm not great at explaining things so you might have to bear with me on this one...I've never truly known who I am or what my purpose in life was. For the past 10 years I've been fighting a mental battle with myself. A battle that I surrendered to at first but the fight never really ended. … Continue reading Don’t Lose Sight Of Who You Truly Are
I've been single now for a fair few years. Looking back, my previous relationship was pretty much a train wreck. After I broke up with him (This was probably our 3rd break up) I knew that I wasn't ever getting back into a relationship with him again. I was well and truly done with all … Continue reading Conquering My Fear Of Loneliness
My last major mental breakdown was May last year. For months afterwards I was on self-destruct mode. When it came to alcohol, drugs and nights out I couldn't say no. By November I was mid way through my one to one counselling sessions which were mainly focusing on my PTSD and anxiety. At this point … Continue reading Getting Signed Off Work Due To My Mental Health
Today is a day I used to dread. Normally by now I would have woken up in tears and I would be lying in my depressive hole for the rest of the day. I would normally go on social media and see people posting their tributes to their dad and I would either get angry at the … Continue reading Happy Fathers Day!
It's a topic that I cannot seem to get my family members (mostly my mum) to understand. I have absolutely no plans to ever have children. In all honesty, I don't think I've ever been a fan of babies or children. I live in a community where young parents (some younger than me) is the norm and I … Continue reading The ‘Grand Children’ Talk…
I've spoken about my past with self harm, which you can read here if you would like, but my past with suicidal thoughts and attempted suicide is a topic that nobody in my life really knows about. After my dads death I was riddled with guilt, grief and pain. It was a lot for a 12 … Continue reading My Past Suicide Attempt
My friends and family don't know this, so if one day they happen to read this article I'd like to say I'm sorry I never told you. After my dad died I had major struggles with myself. I was riddled with what ifs and the guilt I felt from his death took over my life. … Continue reading My Past With Self Harm