It’s my weekend off and I’m so excited to do absolutely nothing. I need to recharge my batteries. This weekend is focused on getting back on track with my yoga, soul cards and meditation as I have lost my routine slightly since my move here. My energy needs a cleanse and a re balance and as excited as I am to be getting some me time, I am missing my boy.
Being in a such a beautiful place is great but it does make you miss the ones you love because you know that they would love it here too. My dog especially. Acres of fields, fresh air and plenty of birds for him to bark at. I just know he would love it here and that makes being here challenging sometimes. I’m still absolutely loving here but there have been moments where I had a tough morning/afternoon or I’m feeling a little deflated and I don’t have my dog to turn to after the day of working is done with. I don’t have him there to cuddle at night. I don’t have him here to sit outside with at night whilst we stare at the stars in the sky because honestly the night sky here is unbelievable. I think during the first week or so I was fascinated at where I was living and working and I was very much focused on getting settled in and cracking on with work. I’ve been working now for 3 weeks and now that I’m getting into more of a routine the realisation of not having Barney around is sinking in.
It’s been hard waking up on my day off without Barney being lay next to me. Sundays are my days of rest so Barney would near enough always sleep with me on a Saturday night then we could both have a lie in on the Sunday morning. It’s been weird not having him here. It’s weird seeing the pictures my mum has sent me of him as they are on a holiday at the moment in Wales. It’s made me realise that I can’t just pop round to go and see him and I’m not sure when I’m going to next see him. It’s been pretty tough to come to terms with that but I know he’s happy and healthy and for me that is all that matters.
I miss coming home from my evening runs and not being greeted by his wagging tail.
I miss dancing around my bedroom whilst he is lay on my bed watching me.
I miss how he always curled up in between my legs.
I miss hearing him bark at the birds in the garden.
I miss talking to him about stupid shit.
But most of all I miss his hugs. I taught him how to give hugs when he was a puppy. I would sit on the floor, pat my chest and he would put his two front paws on my shoulder and give me a kiss on the cheek and whenever I was crying, he would always give me a hug.
It’s hard to put into words how special he is and how much he really means to me. We all love our pets dearly and they have all brought us so much joy, laughter, tears and happiness into our lives. Barney has truly been a blessing in my life and leaving him behind was the most difficult part of this move but I know that if it wasn’t for him things might have turned out very differently for me. My move to Australia has been the best decision I have ever made and I have a few people to thank for that but Barney is the hero in my life. I will forever be grateful for his loyalty and his endless love.
Sending my love,