I have anti-social days. For example today I am feeling anti-social. There is absolutely nothing wrong with me, I just don’t have the energy to talk and I’d much rather be in my own space but a lot of people don’t quite get this. They normally tie it to my mental health and they then think I’m relapsing or having some sort of troubled moment. I’M NOT. Don’t panic! I have anti-social days fairly regularly. I take it as a day for me to recharge my batteries and sort any loose wires out. It gives me a chance to listen to what my mind and body are telling me and how they want me to recharge. Sometimes its going for a long walk or having a relaxing bath. Sometimes it’s meditation, yoga or a good old joint.
My energy gets drained pretty quickly and for a number of different reasons. It can be from being in a crowded place, being around the wrong people who don’t click with me or too much socializing which all makes sense as to why my body has anti-social days. When I’m running low on energy it takes its toll on me. I become snappy, my way of thinking becomes fuzzy, my body aches and my issues seem to be on a loop. I crave alone time. I need a minimum of 45 minutes to regain some energy. It’s like a mini vacation for me. Just me, myself and I.
I’ve been fairly quiet today and it is purely because I just need to recharge. So this evening I am going to take myself for a long walk and when I get home I’ll be straight off to bed. I’m also going to try to squeeze some meditation in this evening too just to loosen up any tension and clear my mind.
I would like to thank my readers out there. Thank you for taking the time to read through any of my posts. Thank you for your kind words. Thank you for letting me vent, moan and express my true self without judgement. This blog has become a piece of my heart and I treasure it dearly. In the next few days I am going to release my blog to friends and family. I’ve kept it private so far because of how personal this blog is to me. It was a place for me to express who I truly am and those people who are physically in my life don’t really know the real Emma. So thank you readers for helping me gain my confidence in myself and for helping me reach a point where I am no longer scared of being who I truly am.
I really do love you all so much,